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28 weeks Pregnant..

28 weeks, I can barely believe it, after the previous losses I am almost prepared to admit that I may be holding a baby in my arms at the end of this. I am not going to lie, this pregnancy has been mentally quite tough, and I perhaps haven’t been very kind to myself. I’ve looked for reasons for previous losses, and all of the reasons (however daft) have pointed back to me, whether it be my weight, my inclination to drink quite a lot in my twenties or my stress levels. While I realise that I’m not to blame for things going wrong, it has taken me til now to accept that sometimes crap just happens, and no amount of me feeling bad about things is going to help. 
I guess it doesn’t help that my midwife is not the most supportive woman in the world, she perceives me as an experience mother, who she just goes through the motions with. That’s lovely, but actually I’m looking for a little reassurance, and when I mention a previous traumatic birth, telling me “you’ve picked the WORST month to have a baby then haven’t you” isn’t exactly helpful. To be honest, I don’t think any month is a good month to have a baby, the hospitals are always understaffed and people are always having babies.. < I started to write quite a politically hinged arguement here, and have deleted it as that’s not for this blog at this time.. > 

So, how am I feeling? Today I am shattered, I have been awake since 2.40am with my 3 yr old, who is now asleep on the floor.. I should have a nap myself but the 5 yr old doesn’t want me to as he doesn’t like being “alone” bless him. So I am sat armed with a fizzy orange drink and various foods to keep my fuelled for the time being.. This evening I am having an anti-d injection (given to rhesus negative pregnant ladies) after all the muddle with anti-bodies found in my booking bloods, it turns out that I don’t have anti-bodies anymore and I can have the anti-d. I have to be honest, the anti-d stings, I once made the mistake of letting them put it in the muscle in my arm instead of my bum..never ever again! It hurt so much I had to fight back tears! I think being tired isn’t going to help me to deal with the stinging today..and I fear I may cry just by being so tired. Actually, this week I have cried several times, mostly due to being tired and unable to do what I was trying to do, that and I seem to have encountered several idiots who seem to enjoy making life difficult! 

Bump, I have started to count the kicks using a kick counter on my pregnancy app, baby seems to kick hugely around the time I want to go to bed, so I use the kick counter then, we seem to be getting 10 kicks in 3 or 4 minutes so all is well at the moment, and I do like the reassurance of baby moving, even though it is sometimes quite uncomfortable! My rain coat barely does up now, but I’m determined with 3months to go I’m now not going to replace it, so I hope that the weather dries up a bit, else I may be walking around with a soggy baby bump!

Ms G x

 

24 weeks pregnant

I was pleased to see the midwife this week as I had some concerns. Long story short I’ve started to experience spells where I go incredibly faint, and it takes me a fair amount of time to recover. I felt a bit daft telling her about this, and even worse when she couldn’t set my mind at ease instead explaining it could be my blood pressure or several other things.. So I’m meant to phone the birth centre when it happens and go to get checked, but having had it happen while I was 40mins from home on Thursday, I confess that my priority was to get home safely and I didn’t call the MW.. I’m hoping it doesn’t happen again.. If it does I will call her..

My weight gain this pregnancy is 4kg which apparently is good, but I’m already panicking that I’ve gained too much weight and the baby is going to be massive..I’ve never been worried about my weight in pregnancy before so I’m not entirely sure where this fear has come from? I guess I don’t want there to be any added risks to the pregnancy from gaining too much weight? (I hasten to add I am aware there are major risks with not gaining weight, but I wasn’t to slim to begin with!) Anyway, now my appetite is back all I can do is attempt to make healthy choices..but giving into the urge to eat pies is all to easy at the moment..(this is typed as I polish off a left over Easter egg..)

E is getting used to the idea of having a baby in the house, he is rubbing my tummy and talking to baby after every cuddle. He still occasionally announces that he doesn’t really think we need baby to come to stay but when reminded that he will be a big brother this seems to cheer him up! Boo is quite excited and wants to shop for baby, I have yet to buy anything for baby. I wish I could get over the fear that is deep routed in this pregnancy, two consecutive losses prior to this have taken their toll, and I fear even buying a baby gro might tempt fate. I have been doing lots of window shopping, and friends have gleefully been demanding I look at certain shops or websites at things which they have seen and think I desperately need! So it’s not all doom and gloom! I have got to sort out the moses basket soon, it’ll need a new mattress and probably new sheets, then once that’s sorted we will start looking seriously at a buggy!

Ms G x

23 weeks pregnant Kicks that make you go wee in the night.

It’s 2.45am, I’m wide awake after being rudely awakened by a kick to my bladder..23weeks pregnant and already baby is showing me who the boss is! Each night for the last week I have been awoken in a similar manner, I wake up a little dazed and confused and then another sharp baby kick alerts me to my urge to wee thanks to the angle of the kick. I am struggling with indigestion tonight or should I say this morning(?!) which is adding to my discomfort! It seems like baby is using my whole belly like a giant trampoline – which is marvellous but I really wish baby could save this hyperactivity until after 8am..
I’ve been enjoying the Easter break with lots of outdoors time with the boys, although I have to confess my back and hips are struggling with SPD. I had Boo protesting when I needed a little sit down that I was “holding him up”, which made me giggle and I had to promise him pudding after dinner if I could just sit for two minutes longer! Sitting isn’t very comfortable either, but I needed to take the weight off my feet! Talking of feet, I have begun to live in my trainers, and I need to find some shoes which are comfortable but not trainers!
Bump photos I’m going to have to plan from now on..as to be honest my arms aren’t long enough to hold the camera out and get a good photo..but here’s the 23 week bump photo, although it’s a definite bump, I’m still having to reassure people that I am actually pregnant and not extra weight! The negative side of the nausea dwindling, is I seem to always be hungry and I want to eat everything..so I am probably gaining rather more weight than I ought be..I am trying to make healthy choices, and load up with vegetables or salad at meal times, but..it’s the snacks when I start craving pork pies or cream cakes..I can feel my waist line expanding just thinking about it! 


Ms G x